Growing up, many people that knew my family would comment how cute I was. They stated how “I was gonna be a heart breaker one day” while I squeamishly hid behind my mother or fathers leg.
It is ridiculous to think how uncomfortable all of that used to make me. All my life I have hated compliments and attention. When I was younger (let’s say pre-high school) it led to me acting like a total tomboy and then when I was in high school I acted like a total hard ass.
Always…I have listened and thanked people on their compliments, but more importantly I am now not afraid of them. Learning to face hard circumstances makes you grow up. And learning how to handle acts that require a strong attitude in the face of discomfort is an important thing to know.
Writing papers was the same way for me if I am being honest. I hated writing papers. That all changed in 2009 when I met my ninth grade teacher, Ms.Hughes. Wonderful excitement mixed with unbelievably fast paced learning was her style. She even had the same first name as me.
The only teacher I ever had that cared about you learning to love English, not just learn English. She got to know her students and each one she invested in. She helped you grow. It is honest to god inspiring to think about all she did for me, and let alone countless others.
She taught me what I am about to teach you:
English is transformative, it is beautifully unique, and a form of media that you can mold into whatever piece of literature you very well please. English is Shakespearean text, poetry, narrative, essays, diary entries, slang…but it is also spoken. She had us read a variety of excerpts (with varying diction and syntax) out loud weekly. I thought,
“O M G . S H E I S O N T O S O M E T H I N G”,
We learned to face the discomfort of writing papers.
It helped us become stronger writers by listening to spoken word. It helped us be able to read aloud what we had written and pin point what was grammatically incorrect. She was not so concerned that we knew the grammar rules, just that we knew how grammar affected not only how something being read is understood but also how it is incorporated into spoken word.
Since learning grammar in a unique way, I know the best process for myself is to talk aloud about what I want to say until it sounds correct, noting the pauses and tone. Then I write those thoughts verbatim on paper and go back and re-work them later.
This was the process that I used for both of the papers essentially. I did however have to do extensive research for the second paper which is ditto.
But, when changing genres in writing your style is almost always going to be altered somehow. For the last paper it was more about influencing someone to believe a stance based on emotional appeal and this one is more about proving an argument through concrete evidence. Thus, the writing style followed what needed to be done.
I have improved on my writing process by taking the time to create an outline for the research paper and following it. I need to work on not using the same word at the beginning of a sentence, which I think I am only half bad at. I also need to work on patience with writing, because I am very quickly frustrated and it shouldn’t cause me so much anxiety.
B U T ,
I have to go into work now so till next time,
– xoxo, Sar